Jeans and Sneakers

Things have been kind of nuts. We went to hfest, which was a blast. But the week leading up to it was insane. Rob was trying to get his car running, which he did, and I finally got to ship the doll. I also was doing laundry and getting things ready for the trip. The whole weekend was really fun, but I have limited pictures to show for it, and none that I really feel like putting up on the blog. Rob played guitar hero a lot of the time, I ate SO many bratwurst sausages, and bought a lot of wine. Good wine too, and I’ve still got some leftover.

Being home is nice, but it took forever to get back home, so I was exhausted on Monday, and I called in. I’ve caught up on sleep now, but it’s kind of sad now that I don’t really have anything huge to look forward to. Just the weekend.

Well that’s not entirely true. There’s another RX-7 meetup, the last one of the year in a couple of weekends, and there’s the Sheep and Wool Festival, and Rob said we could go to Fright Fest at Great Adventure sometime, so I guess there’s stuff going on. But the year is winding down, and that’s always kind of a downer for me.

I found out today that when I called in on Monday, they didn’t get my voicemail, so they thought I just didn’t show up. They finally got the voicemail yesterday though, so any bad thoughts about me should be gone. I’m pretty sure though that I’m not going to stay w/this company for years and years. It’s a good position for me to be in now, but it’s boring as hell, and I don’t like some of the interpersonal things going on in the office. I guess every office has it’s backstabbing, but I dunno, it bothers me. I started thinking about learning tech stuff, and trying to get a tech job eventually, so I can seriously increase my income. Rob said he’d help me out, and the hfest guys are willing to help too. So there’s really no reason for me not to try. I can’t seem to find a job in the middle of having absolutely nothing to do, and having way too much to do. I wouldn’t think that would be such a problem.

Things have been kind of weird with my family lately too. My mom’s still being herself, and asking me for money, my dad hasn’t called me because he’s “waiting for me to call him back”, even though the last couple of times I’ve spoken to him, he didn’t say much and ended the conversation quickly. . .and well, I’m just not willing to deal with them right now.

Last week I was also going through some stressful shit with Tmobile, since I originally thought I was signing up for a 1 year contract when I got my sidekick, but it turns out the papers I signed didn’t specify a duration on the contract, and they signed me up for 2 years. Apparently I can’t do anything short of getting a lawyer to get it fixed, because I have no documentation that states that I only agreed to a 1 year contract, even though they don’t have anything that says that I agreed to a 2 year. It’s all a bunch of bullshit.

I’m trying to take it easy this week, I’ve been feeling really stressed, and having all the time in the world all day at work to sit here and think and worry about things isn’t helping. I can’t focus on much of anything, I couldn’t even knit last night for very long. I feel like I should be using this time to do something productive, but I can’t figure out what I should be doing.

Man, I hope this changes, and that in 5 years or so I’ll be in a better place saying “Man my 20’s sucked. I was all over the place, without focus, and no direction. I’m glad that’s over.”

Yesterday was our annual Bday BBQ.  I suck and didn’t take any pictures.  Almost everyone came out, including Wyn, and a good time was had by all.  There’s still tons of food left over and I’m excited about it.

I’m mostly done with the doll.  The self-guilt-trips will stop soon.  I’ll also be able to buy the yarn for the forecast I’m planning on making.  YAY for first cable-ing project!!

A girl at work asked me if I’d show her how to knit during lunch sometimes.  I said ok.  Speaking of work, it’s going well.  They gave me a free demo phone with free service.  I’m totally going to stay at this job for as long as I can.  I got my first regular paycheck on Friday and it was awesome.

I ordered an old vintage dress pattern on Ebay, and it came in the mail.  I’m pretty excited about that too.  I just have to find some awesome fabric to make it out of, but I don’t think that’ll be a problem.  I know of a cool discount fabric shop online.

I’m gonna go start a game of Kingdom Hearts now, Arigato Bay-san!

It’s not yet 6pm and I just want to be home.
The weekend was great, Saturday I hung out with Wyn, we went to her
crochet group, where I started the socks with the yarn that I dyed.
After that we walked around and ate good foods and went dress shopping and
she took me to see Les Miserables. It was amazing. I definitely want to
learn to sing again.
Afterwards, she coordinated a meetup with an old friend from HS which was
also very awesome. I haven’t seen him in 10 years. Plus I met this other
guy Wyn’s friends with that she talks about all the time, he’s very cool.
When I went to get on the train home I spotted another friend from HS,
and I sat with him and caught up during the ride home. Good times.
Sunday I tried to relax a little, and we did our dinner thing at Rob’s
parents house. Rob’s dad gave me a classical guitar which is so cool.
It sounds gorgeous, now I just have to learn how to play.
It’s only Tuesday, and I’m having issues with being at work. It’s not as
bad as it’s been at other jobs, and I think it’s mostly due to the fact
that my weekend was so full of stuff. This weekend is going to be kind of
busy too, since Saturday we’re having the bday bbq. And then next weekend
is hfest. I’m not sure I’ll have any fun at hfest this year, I feel like
an outsider most of the time I go in the channel anymore. Oh well.
I want to go home and read this book I started last night, and maybe knit
a little, but I’ve still got this doll to finish. I was supposed to
finish it this weekend, but I emailed the customer to say I would ship on
Monday, and he told me to wait because they’re away. So it gave me some
extra time and I didn’t work on the doll at all over the weekend.
Technically I could leave it until this weekend, but I’m trying to avoid
that. It would be better to just get it over with.
Tomorrow’s Rob’s bday, and I feel crappy about it. I got him two things,
both that he could use, but they’re nothing spectacular, and he got one of
them already since with it getting delivered when I wasn’t home, it was
unavoidable. I am taking him out to dinner though. But still, I feel
like I should be able to do more for him. :[
I’ve still got an hour left today and I’m going nuts. I haven’t been
getting very good sleep either, so I’m sleepy. I hate driving home
feeling like this. Well, what can you do?

I like it better when Labor Day falls on my bday.  Instead, tomrrow I’ll just be at work, telling everyone it’s my bday.  Maybe I’ll dress up and finally wear that pencil skirt.  I dunno why but I’m like scared to wear it now.  It’s stupid, because I wore the black one I had for the interview to this job.

Friday night I went to my mom’s to help her move into her new apartment.  We futzed around so much though that we only got one trip in.  I went back on Saturday with Marj, and spent the whole day getting the last of her shit out of that awful place she was living, and into the nice new place.  It’s nice to not have to worry about that anymore.  Good luck to my brothers for being the new kids in HS though.  :[

Yesterday I was supposed to do some car shit, but I woke up before Rob and got bored, so I went looking for a twin bed frame for my mom on craig’s list and ended up finding out there was a flea market in the Bellmore train station parking lot.  I went over there and ended up spending a good two hours looking at all the stuff.  I almost bought a guitar and a violin, but I didn’t, knowing that what they needed cost enough that I could just buy a new one elsewhere.  Afterwards I picked up Rob and we went to do the dinner thing at his parent’s house.  Dinner was really good, and his mom gave me presents, and then in talking about the flea market, Rob’s dad offered to give me a classical guitar that he’s apparrently been looking to give away.  We came home and Rob played the new Metroid until I fell asleep.

Today I still didn’t get my car stuff done, and what’s worse, I haven’t started the doll yet.  But I’m going to.  It’s only 7, and I’ve got the rest of the week to get this done.  Hope everyone’s had a great long weekend.