Jeans and Sneakers

I could have sworn I’ve posted between the last post that’s up on the page and now, but evidence seems to prove me wrong.

I had a good three day weekend, I bummed around with Rob, watched lots of tv on dvd, and got some rest.  Monday I went in with him to his job, and I actually watched actual tv all day.  But I don’t think that it counts, since I only really watched movies on tv, and no actual tv shows.

I also read through my livejournal, and eventually when I came home, my paper diary.  I learned something too.  For the past really long time (throughout all of my bitching about how I hate working for anyone and wanting to start a business,) I’ve been really depressed about how I’ve handled my work situations at the places I’ve been employed.  Namely, quitting when I get sick of it, and not necessarily making sure I have anything else lined up.  But when I went back and read through my diary entries, and my lj posts, I really had some pretty effing good reasons for quitting those places.  I’m a pushover when it comes to my employers, and they use me.  All the time they use me.  And when I finally get sick of it, quitting has been LONG overdue.

So I feel a lot better about myself now.  Knowing that I had more than enough reasons to leave the places I did, and it makes me feel better now, knowing that I want to leave this job, even though it pays well and my boss isn’t an asshole.  It makes me feel better because I’ve finally gotten it.  I’m just not cut out for an office job.  Like I’m not cut out for being a doctor.  There are just some things that I’m really not down with.  Having an office job is one of them.  Because when I look back, I did well at the other jobs I’ve had that weren’t office jobs.  The only real reason I quit was because of extremely low pay, or I was moving to a different part of the state.

So, looking at it this way, I feel way good about myself, and I kind of have a good feeling about going into business for myself.  Instead of the dread, doubt and terror I was feeling about it before.

I’m going to stay at this job until my debt is gone, even if I hate it.  It’s stupid at this point to give up so close to the goal.  If I can just get it gone, and get my teef fixed, then all I really need is a few grand to go on while I get stuff moving.

And I’m going to start making things.  Other things that I can sell on my site.  I’m not sure what yet, I’ll figure it out when I make them.  But they will be cool.  Which means my site needs a makeover if I’m going to have a store.  But that’s fine.  It’s look is over a year old.  :]

Rob and I watched so much Lost that we’re almost caught up to the weekly shows.  We decided to lay off it for a while and watch some more X Files so that we don’t have to wait for the Lost episodes weekly.  :]  Such couch potatoes now!

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