Jeans and Sneakers

Do you want the good or the bad first?  Well, I always ask for the bad first, so here goes.  I quit my job early. I know, incredibly irresponsible of me, not to mention not getting money that I sort of really need.

I couldn’t bring myself to go back though.  Last week Ben told me he had to redo my work anyway, because he kept changing his mind about how he wanted things done, and all I could think of is how pointless it would be for me to suffer through going there for four days, when I can’t even say that “At least I got my work done.”  I mean seriously, that place had me in anxious fits every Sunday night. . .  I decided it just wasn’t worth the money to have to put up with them for any longer.  And yes, I do feel guilty about it.

And it’s not over yet, they want me to hand over the passwords to various message boards that I “represented” the company on, “so that they can be sure that I will not use it to slander the company”.  Please.  If I wanted to publicly slander them in front of all their “peers” I would have by now.  I bitch about them on here, but I’ve never mentioned the company name, or the last name of my former “supervisor”.  Besides the fact that I’ve asked them not to use my name or work alias or likeness after I’m gone, and now they think I’m just going to hand over PUBLIC message board profiles because their company name is part of my profile name?  No.  My name is the other part of that profile name, and I’ve agreed to never go on the boards again after I posted my fairwell post, which I did without slighting the company in the least.

Ugh.  So I’ve refused to give the passwords because I never conducted business on any of the boards anyway, and the reputation and personality behind the profile is mine.  Not the company’s.

So what’s the good news?  I’ve finally taught myself the very basic of basics of CSS.  I made a test index page successfully from scratch.  Amazing!  I made a completely clean looking page entirely without the use of tables.  So I’ve won half the battle of trying to create a template for this blog, and my other projects.  :]

Next is PHP.  OOOoooooOOOoOoOoOOoooooooo. . .

Rob offered to help me with learning this too, but he said something not too long ago that made me think it might be a good idea to try to tackle it on my own, and then ask questions only if absolute dire need arose.  I tend to take offense when people oversimplify things for me, or state something obvious, thinking that I wouldn’t understand, or see it for myself.  I get really, really mad.  It’s not pretty.  And I’m pretty sure that if I can sit down and focus, I can learn damned near anything, but I know that I learn less effectively when I think that someone is, advertantly or not, making me look stupid.  So.  Yeah.  I think I’ll tackle that sometime on my own.  At least at first.  We’ll see.

Now that I’m over the CSS obstacle, I can start doing great things with my project.  It’s not like I’m short on time now. . .